There is something no one seems to be talking about in regard to loss, grief and death.

Everyone is effected by grief. Everyone.

The majority of people are resistant to the word, let alone the work it takes to heal, transform and digest this incredibly powerful part of being a human.

Most people are jumping over their losses, never fully digesting them, nor integrating them into their body, or their life. Without proper integration physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually, grief gets pushed deep within the bodies, resulting in multiple challenges, disturbances and dis-eases.

I've been talking a lot lately about undigested grief and even worse, hidden grief.

These are very real issues that are effecting in all honesty, everyone, to some degree. It's not a radical notion to say that everyone on the planet is grieving- whether they are conscious of it or not.

Grief is real. It's a real part of life.

Whether you want to look at it directly, or push it away and negate it, it's still a part of your life- consciously or unconsciously.

Grief indicates that you've experienced a loss on some level- either big or small. These losses really add up.

Part of the grief journey that no one is talking about, is the impact all of your life losses have on your finances.

It's amazing to me that this is never part of the grief conversation.

Debts, lack of money, an inability to make, save or acquire money, are all issues related to loss, to grief. Particularly grief that has not been properly attended to- meaning it hasn't been fully digested or integrated.

Any loss that you've experienced in your life gets stored in your body memory. It's a part of your life and will impact you- your future choices, actions, behaviors, and experiences.

Money is nothing more than a physical resource of nourishment, life force energy. It's a human created expression of abundance, the wealth of nature and her bounty. The ability to receive money, is intimately connected to your ability to receive nourishment- on all levels of life- which includes physical, mental, emotional and spiritual bodies.

This is why the wealth houses of the jyotish chart are also the houses of eating, digesting and giving (2nd, 6th and 10th houses). If you can't eat the nourishment, digest it and assimilate its nutrients fully, you also won't have much of an offering to give to the world. You will have very little life force energy in which to express your powerful gift. .

If your channels are blocked by undigested grief, you won't be able to receive or create vitality, or life force energy. This lack of life force energy impacts your receptivity, your ability to receive nourishment, directly.

What happens when years and years of undigested grief and losses are not honored and healed? Debts pile up (literally your losses pile up). Houses 6 and 8 in your jyotish chart are also houses of digestion, stomach and elimination. They are considered the most challenging houses of the chart, causing serious health issues and not surprisingly are both connected to losses, debt and financial struggles. 

Simply put, when you clean up your bodies (physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually) and process, clear and release the undigested emotions and experiences of life, you have much more receptivity. You literally have more ability to give and receive life force energy.

On the material level of life, this means you have the ability to give and receive more money as well.

Lakshmi is a powerful embodiment of this free flowing energy within the channels of the body. The golden coins pouring from her palms, express the abundance of nourishment- inside and out. Health is wealth! But when any of the four bodies are clogged with toxic byproducts of undigested food, experiences and emotions, the channels of the body will not be open and awake. A dullness will set in and this will impact all levels of your life- even your relationship with money.

Almost every single person who has inquired about my nine month Awakening Through Grief Course has shared money problems are impacting their decision to join the course. Debt has been a very personal part of my grief process as well. I know there is a direct correlation between grief and money, because I've experienced it personally.

One of the most direct correlations between grief and money challenges has to do with stability and support.

When you've experienced a loss- whether large or small- it impacts your stability, your sense of support. This instability impacts your sense of safety- personally, physically, as well as materially. Your experience of life and the world around you becomes destabilized.

So it makes sense that because money represents safety and support, as well as comfort and stability, when life is feeling unstable and unsafe, your money will be impacted as well. Money is energy, so it will reflect your feelings. If you don't feel safe, your money will show it.

When you clear, clean, heal and transform grief, and allow the emotional body to find greater resiliency, this has a positive impact on your receptivity, your ability to receive nourishment- including money.

That is why I've created a nine month course Awakening Through Grief, to support the healing and transformation of your grief. To help you digest, heal and integrate losses- on all four levels of your being- physical, mental, emotional and spiritual.

This very unique nine month course is not just about healing grief, it is really about allowing you to integrate your losses with life, so that you can experience more resiliency, more life force energy.

When you clean up your undigested grief, you suddenly have a lot more space to create, manifest, align and receive the nourishment of life more fully!

The work that we do in this course will help you heal, transform and release grief- whether it's impacting you physically, mentally, emotionally or spiritually- or all of the above. This process is creative, embodied and whole. It's a sacred journey of deeply integrating loss and helping you expand into life more fully.

Please join me for this powerful nine month journey that will truly change your relationship with loss and life. Transform your losses into life!

Remember that if you're experiencing financial problems, this means you are really experiencing life force problems.

You are not able to receive life force energy fully. Your channels are clogged, your receptivity is not awake! Grief, undigested emotions and experiences are blocking your life force energy which will not only impact health, but also finances. Loss equates debt- no matter the story.

Learn how to awaken your receptivity through healing and releasing your grief. Step into a more resilient, embodied and empowering life!

Join me for Awakening Through Grief, a sacred nine month journey to awaken Heart and Spirit.

Last chance to join is October 26th!!

Use this Tapping Meditation to work through your grief process- when you feel stuck, afraid or resistant to change. Remember that we always start with "truth tapping" by expressing feelings and experiences that feel challenging. This is a vital part of the process and paves the way for transformation and healing.

In the podcast below, I share a tapping (EFT) sequence with you that will guide you through transforming and releasing the old stories and invite in more receptivity. Remember, we start with identifying the challenges, then moving into possibility and desires in order to transform our shadow into light.

Use this podcast as you tap through these points:

Karate chop point (side of the hand).
Crown of the head.
Eyebrow point (above the eye).
Side of the eye.
Under the eye.
Under the nose.
Chin point (crease of the chin).
Throat point (collar bone/throat chakra).
Heart point (center of chest).
Stomach point (above the navel).
Side body (nipple line at side of chest).

Tap six to ten times on each point and just keep cycling through the points. Repeat the phrases I use aloud. Notice any thoughts, stories, memories or emotions that emerge as you tap. These are important pieces to return to, do more tapping on, as a way to clear blockages. As always, if the words I use don't work for you, change them to support your process more fully.

Share your experiences below! What emerged for you in this process? Excited to hear from you!

Do you ever catch yourself feeling like "it's not enough" on some level of your life?

It might show up as not enough money, not enough time, resources, support or love. Perhaps you feel you are not enough- in your relationships, as a parent, with family or at your job.

This story of lack, of scarcity, is carried by almost everyone. It shows up in many different ways- affecting your ability to receive the nourishment you need and locking you into a highly critical personal narrative that emerges to undermine your sense of safety and support. You probably feel yourself doing more as a result. Doing more work, putting in more time, feeling depleted in the process. Yet, no matter what you do, you never seem get ahead or conquer this feeling of "it's not enough".

The story "it's never enough" is a powerful force- one that will keep you stuck in cycles of malnourishment, instability and co-dependency.

Like every human being, your ancestral legacy is handed down to you and your story of scarcity is no different. The patterns, behaviors and experiences that were shared with you epigenetically (or energetically), imprinted your being. Your familial stories hardwired you for making certain choices, having certain behaviors and activated likes and dislikes.

My story of scarcity began before I was born. I entered a life where my needs could not be met fully. There was not a feeling of safety and support often nor immense happiness and joy surrounding my birth. I arrived to a mother who was already depleted- taking care of another small child and a partner who was struggling on a variety of levels. My mother's own story of lack had multiplied and taking care of yet another person with needs, I imagine, felt overwhelming to her.

When my father died suddenly just after my first birthday, the lack intensified within me. The immense shock, grief and trauma surrounding his death, undermined my ability to feel worthy or supported. In fact, this woundology that I've carried about not being "enough" for my father to stay on the planet, has impacted me greatly.

Three years ago my mother passed suddenly and left me with heart wrenching grief. I spent my entire life trying to be "enough" for her and yet again I was not "enough" on some level to keep her here on the planet.

Of course on the conscious level, I know this story doesn't make sense, but my unconscious terrain has perpetuated a very shadowed story of "not being enough" as I am. This "not enough" story has been a powerful force that has undermined my ability to feel safe, supported and loved.

As I continue to explore the territory of my personal mythology and allow my grief to be a healing force in my inner awakening, life has dramatically shifted. Understanding the nuances of my early childhood experiences and how they have sabotaged and undermined my ability to feel safe, supported, grounded or even willing to stay rooted in my body, has been vital for my recovery process.

My story of lack has directly impacted my finances. This ability to feel safe and supported, or to make choices that support further stability, has been directly connected to money.

In fact, your relationship with money is always going to mirror to you what your biggest needs are. Where you are stuck in lack, scarcity or "not being enough".

Pause here and notice.

What is your story with money?

Do you always struggle to make ends meet?

Are you able to make money, but just can't seem to keep it or save it?

Is there plenty of money, but still a sense of depletion and malnourishment anyway?

Is your financial stability intimately connected to someone else taking care of you?

Notice how your story with money is connected to not feeling like you're "enough" on some level of your life.

How does your money story connect with your story of lack in other areas of your life?

The fact is they are intimately connected. Wherever you are not feeling "enough" within yourself, this will be mirrored to you within your finances.

These old stories and wounds can be re-patterned, changed, healed and transformed. In fact, for the last five years, I've dedicated my efforts to deepening my experience of support and stability- both inner and outer. The massive instability I've experienced, has forced this need to intensify and has activated deeper desires for a sense of grounding.

Fortunately my embodiment resources and tools have been a powerful way for me to deepen my relationship with stability and support, changing my story in positive ways. I am happy to share that how I work with my instability is very different these days! My choices are radically different- which means I no longer create the immense instability I used to, nor am I attracting it to myself. I'm also very conscious of the instability when and if it arrives- so I can use it as a resource for deepening my inner change.

Metaphorically, the legs and feet are your grounding and stabilizing resources within the body.

Legs and feet are connected to the 9th, 10th, 11th and 12th houses of the jyotish chart- or Sagittarius, Capricorn, Aquarius and Pisces as well. The planets connected to these houses and signs can be important resources which may offer you a road map to re-patterning your relationship with stability and support. Use your jyotish chart as a resource for understanding your scarcity, lack and instability story.

The process of sustainable and lasting change begins within. It begins with the body, with sensation, with slow steps that move you closer to the feeling of being steady and grounded.

When the feelings of instability have been where your focus and attention has been for so many years, it requires diligence and "retraining" in order to strengthen and clarify the feeling of stability instead.

The wisdom of somatics and embodiment training are gentle, yet powerful resources for creating lasting inner change.

Join me June 26th for an embodied approach to creating abundance.

Change your story of scarcity and create more wealth- in an embodied way.

Learn resources to re-pattern your story of lack and scarcity using the wisdom of the body, jyotish and creativity.

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Last chance to register is June 24th!

See you in class and please share your experiences below!

The tapping meditation above is your first step in identifying and moving your scarcity story. Share your experiences and questions below.

This week, I had someone unsubscribe from my newsletter list and leave me a note of disapproval. They said that my "spiritual" marketing made them uncomfortable and the quote I shared in one of my Diwali newsletters that said, "I love money", turned them off. I want to thank this person for sharing their discomfort with me. It proved to be a very valuable resource for my own process and helped me to deepen my love of money. Yes, I do love money! There are many reasons actually, but this is why I love money and think it is a fabulous resource for our spirituality. Perhaps the best!

Money is a resource. It is energy. The energy of money brings us what we need and helps us get the nourishment that we need in this life. We are here to manifest, to create our lives. Money is one such resource that we need to create the life we want for ourselves. I love getting my needs met and feeling nourished. I love that money can do this for me. But this isn't the only reason I love money.

I love that money gives a reflection. It amplifies, it mirrors, it helps us identify. It's an energy after all. I see so often in the spiritual communities (and in those who are trying to live spiritual lives) that there is a disconnect between money and spirituality. This is really unfortunate! There is often so much discomfort and negativity placed onto money amongst spiritual beings. I am passionate about helping people shift this!

It's actually not the money that is bad at all. It's our reflection of what money is. But this is why I love it so much! Money shows us where we are resisting, refusing, pushing away or avoiding our shadow! If money makes you uncomfortable, that is a place within you that needs to be transformed and awakened. If it weren't for money, you would miss that spot of challenge, obstacle or suffering within your being!

Unfortunately, rather than understanding that challenges and obstacles are something to lean into, most people turn away and then blame others, blame money, blame something or someone else. It seems easier. But the reality is that running from our discomfort does not help us awaken, transform and heal the shadow parts of ourselves.

Challenges and discomfort around money are actually opportunities for growth! The confusion and obstacles that many people have about spirituality and money are also opportunities for deepening your connection to spirit, as well as this human existence we call life. We can not deny our humanness, nor push past our challenging human experiences while always running to the good stuff. This is spiritual by-passing at its core. If you are a light chaser, you better be in honest relationship with your shadow simultaneously. Otherwise you will not be a balanced, well-rounded human being. You will also be stunting your spiritual growth.

There are many reasons to keep a balanced relationship with our light and dark parts, but in terms of manifestation this is vital. Honestly working with our discomfort, fears, anger, and the range of emotions that surface when we meet a challenge, are in fact resources for self-discovery and awakening. These are parts that require our diligence and effort in order to awaken and transform shadow into light. If you just push it away, it will in fact intensify and re-emerge with more strength and tenacity.

When we refuse to address the challenging parts of ourselves, we are missing opportunities for growth and spiritual awakening. Essentially, obstacles and challenges are resources for change. For identifying parts of ourselves that need more attention, awareness and more light. If we feel challenged or have emotions that trigger us, that is a great place to look! Why are you challenged? What is the story under this emotion? What do you really need? Where are there safety and support issues emerging?

It's also vital that we stay as close to the body as possible. If we disconnect from our physical body and are not embodied, we lose our ability to manifest and create desires and ideas into form. Remember that we do not manifest from thoughts, but from feelings. Feelings are inherent to the first and second chakras, the manifesting chakras. If we aren't in the body, we aren't able to feel deeply and therefore we are not able to manifest. This is why I am so adamant about embodiment resources as well as art therapy tools. They are the ultimate manifestation resources!

In order to help you create a deeper relationship with money and move past any spiritual blockages that may be keeping you from manifesting money, I've made a special podcast to help you tap through the mental and emotional obstacles that may be blocking you.

In the podcast below, I share a tapping (EFT) sequence with you that will guide you through transforming and releasing the old stories around money, while helping you awaken and receive new forms of nourishment. (I recorded this while hiking up a mountain, with snow crunching under my feet. Excuse the rough quality, but enjoy the information nonetheless!)

Use this podcast as you tap through these points:

Karate chop point (side of the hand).
Crown of the head.
Eyebrow point (above the eye).
Side of the eye.
Under the eye.
Under the nose.
Chin point (crease of the chin).
Throat point (collar bone/throat chakra).
Heart point (center of chest).
Stomach point (above the navel).
Side body (nipple line at side of chest).

Tap six to ten times on each point and just keep cycling through the points. Repeat the phrases I use aloud or use words that best align with your own needs.

Share your experiences below! What emerged for you in this process? Excited to hear from you!

​For so many of us, money has not been a resource of support and stability, safety or security. In fact, it has been quite the opposite.

Does money bring up fear, terror, anger, frustrations, sadness or even trauma for you?

Almost everyone has a strong story (or many stories) connected to their money.

The support and stability piece connected to money is important. Money is an energetic resource that can provide a sense of support in our life, as well as security, stability, and safety. It is a resource of nourishment. Our ability to be well nourished in life determines our resiliency and our sense of thriving. If there are blockages connected to receiving money, there are blockages connected to receiving nourishment. It's that simple.

Do you feel rich right now? Yes or no?

These feelings are creating your life. They are either helping you create more of what you do want or more of what you don’t want.

It's essential to know that we do not manifest from thinking, but from our feelings.

The truth is, if we aren’t receiving money, it’s a resistance to being nourished and supported on some level of our life. A resistance to getting our needs met. I guarantee this is showing up in your life on other levels for you and even causing malnutrition on multiple levels of your life. The reality is, money is just an energy that shows us where we are resisting the flow of life force energy, creativity, vitality, abundance and nourishment. These blockages can be seen in your  jyotish chart as well.

If we are having issues creating life, manifesting our desires into form, there must be a blockage or an obstacle that is standing in our way. The only thing stopping us is our own shadow, the illusions that we are unable to create and be powerful creators. Remember that we are only able to manifest from our feelings and therefore it is vital that we have a deep relationship with our emotional body. Sadly, this is where most people are stuck, blocked, and quite frankly emotionally illiterate.

A deep relationship with your emotions is vital for manifestation. We don’t manifest with the mind, the mental body, thinking or even visualizing. This is the mistake of the entire Law of Attraction movement and the affirmations people say. The only way affirmations work is if you create a deeper relationship with the feeling of the desire. The feeling of being wealthy. The feeling of being safe in your relationships. The feeling of driving your new car. The feeling of doing joyful work in the world.

But there’s a catch. Often we have hidden agendas that sabotage our ability to receive. This is often connected to feelings of safety and security. If it doesn’t feel safe to receive your desire, you won’t be able to receive it. It doesn’t matter how hard you wish, plan, set goals, etc. You won’t be nourished by your relationships, if it doesn’t feel safe on some level of your being. You won’t be wealthy if on some level you don’t feel safe having a lot of money.

This is where the work begins. Tracking your emotions and noticing the physical body sensations that emerge around money will help you identify where you are stuck, resistant, avoiding, fearful, etc. It's imperative to be tracking your stories connected to money as well. The stories that are stuck in your mental body, looping on auto pilot and keeping you in old patterns of lack and malnourishment. These are very old stories! Stories that began as early as childhood and were reinforced through life experiences. Stories that may in fact be older than that! Ancestral and lineage stories that you adopted as your own. Some of these stories in fact are just very old karma that can be shifted, changed and healed.

In the podcast below, I share a tapping (EFT) sequence with you that will guide you through transforming and releasing the old stories around money, while helping you awaken and receive new forms of nourishment. (I recorded this while hiking up a mountain so it's a bit rough, but truly authentic!)

Use this podcast as you tap through these points:

Karate chop point (side of the hand).
Crown of the head.
Eyebrow point (above the eye).
Side of the eye.
Under the eye.
Under the nose.
Chin point (crease of the chin).
Throat point (collar bone/throat chakra).
Heart point (center of chest).
Stomach point (above the navel).
Side body (nipple line at side of chest).

Tap six to ten times on each point and just keep cycling through the points. Repeat the phrases I use aloud.

Share your experiences below! What emerged for you in this process? Excited to hear from you!

Diwali (or Deepavali) is a very significant five day festival in the Vedic tradition. This year, the festivities begin on the November 7th in the USA, and continue until the 12th. The most significant day of the Diwali festivities is on the 11th because of the new Moon.

This five day celebration honors light, Lakshmi, and the divine resources available to us. Lakshmi is the giver of health, vitality, nourishment and wealth. The festival of light spiritually signifies the victory of light over darkness, knowledge over ignorance, good over evil, and hope over despair. Three of the most important days are dedicated to Dhanvantari, Hanuman and of course the new moon being the most important of all, which is solely dedicated to Goddess Lakshmi.

Diwali is the celebration of light conquering darkness and the increase of positive, life supporting forces in our life. Multiple traditions celebrate Diwali, from Hindu, Jain to Sikh; over 15% of the world's population. During Diwali, Hindus celebrate the return of Lord Rama from his exile- a reflection of good over evil. Legend has it the kingdom was adorned in lights upon his return! Jain's celebrate the moksha of their guru, Mahavira, and his attainment of enlightenment during this time. Sikhs celebrate the sixth Guru who was released from capture and returned to the Golden Temple during Diwali. Plenty of stories to celebrate and honor!

For the USA, Dhanvantari Trayodashi is Sunday, November 8th. This is a day of celebrating the father of Ayurveda, Lord Dhanvantari, physician to the gods and an incarnation of Lord Vishnu. A day dedicated to health and wholeness, as well as praying for longevity. Health is the biggest form of wealth and we can use this as a powerful reminder for total being, as well as a day to resource inner and outer balance. Seek balance on the inner and outer levels of life today. Eat lightly today and follow Ayurvedic routine and guidelines. Ask Dhanvantari for tools, wisdom and the ability to take action towards health and well being.

Monday, November 9th is Hanuman Puja, a celebration of Lord Hanuman, the much loved and revered monkey god. His strength and devotion to Lord Rama, are honored today. (Some celebrate Kali on this day instead). Devote your efforts today to dharma, creating bold action steps towards actualizing your full potential and pray for the strength of Lord Hanuman. May we each awaken to the compassion, strength and love within us!

Lakshmi pujas continue from the 10th to the 11th at the height of the festivities, finally ending on the 12th. This exuberant festival of lights, is a powerful time of cultivation and celebration. Moon will be reaching towards its darkest, most inward point, in the 15th tithi (Amavasya), on the 11th. At this time we celebrate the light of lights within all of us.

During this time, it is advised to light candles, leave a light on over night, buy new clothes, make offerings to Maha Lakshmi, eat sweets and enjoy the sweetness and abundance of life that she so generously offers us. Wealth, prosperity (material and spiritual), as well as beauty (inner and outer) are aspects of Lakshmi that are to be honored and treasured. She is also the giver of health and vitality- the most important health of all!

In the days to come, let in the light, the abundance that is present in your life- no matter how small or nuanced. Turn on the light switch of your soul and let this be a poignant moment, intentionally driving out the shadows and inviting in more light to your life. Possibility, hope and joy are significant resources. Honor Lakshmi, light a candle at your altar and invoke her spirit of abundance and wealth. Make your altar dedications to her and sing your prayers and desires to her.

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