There is something no one seems to be talking about in regard to loss, grief and death.

Everyone is effected by grief. Everyone.

The majority of people are resistant to the word, let alone the work it takes to heal, transform and digest this incredibly powerful part of being a human.

Most people are jumping over their losses, never fully digesting them, nor integrating them into their body, or their life. Without proper integration physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually, grief gets pushed deep within the bodies, resulting in multiple challenges, disturbances and dis-eases.

I've been talking a lot lately about undigested grief and even worse, hidden grief.

These are very real issues that are effecting in all honesty, everyone, to some degree. It's not a radical notion to say that everyone on the planet is grieving- whether they are conscious of it or not.

Grief is real. It's a real part of life.

Whether you want to look at it directly, or push it away and negate it, it's still a part of your life- consciously or unconsciously.

Grief indicates that you've experienced a loss on some level- either big or small. These losses really add up.

Part of the grief journey that no one is talking about, is the impact all of your life losses have on your finances.

It's amazing to me that this is never part of the grief conversation.

Debts, lack of money, an inability to make, save or acquire money, are all issues related to loss, to grief. Particularly grief that has not been properly attended to- meaning it hasn't been fully digested or integrated.

Any loss that you've experienced in your life gets stored in your body memory. It's a part of your life and will impact you- your future choices, actions, behaviors, and experiences.

Money is nothing more than a physical resource of nourishment, life force energy. It's a human created expression of abundance, the wealth of nature and her bounty. The ability to receive money, is intimately connected to your ability to receive nourishment- on all levels of life- which includes physical, mental, emotional and spiritual bodies.

This is why the wealth houses of the jyotish chart are also the houses of eating, digesting and giving (2nd, 6th and 10th houses). If you can't eat the nourishment, digest it and assimilate its nutrients fully, you also won't have much of an offering to give to the world. You will have very little life force energy in which to express your powerful gift. .

If your channels are blocked by undigested grief, you won't be able to receive or create vitality, or life force energy. This lack of life force energy impacts your receptivity, your ability to receive nourishment, directly.

What happens when years and years of undigested grief and losses are not honored and healed? Debts pile up (literally your losses pile up). Houses 6 and 8 in your jyotish chart are also houses of digestion, stomach and elimination. They are considered the most challenging houses of the chart, causing serious health issues and not surprisingly are both connected to losses, debt and financial struggles. 

Simply put, when you clean up your bodies (physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually) and process, clear and release the undigested emotions and experiences of life, you have much more receptivity. You literally have more ability to give and receive life force energy.

On the material level of life, this means you have the ability to give and receive more money as well.

Lakshmi is a powerful embodiment of this free flowing energy within the channels of the body. The golden coins pouring from her palms, express the abundance of nourishment- inside and out. Health is wealth! But when any of the four bodies are clogged with toxic byproducts of undigested food, experiences and emotions, the channels of the body will not be open and awake. A dullness will set in and this will impact all levels of your life- even your relationship with money.

Almost every single person who has inquired about my nine month Awakening Through Grief Course has shared money problems are impacting their decision to join the course. Debt has been a very personal part of my grief process as well. I know there is a direct correlation between grief and money, because I've experienced it personally.

One of the most direct correlations between grief and money challenges has to do with stability and support.

When you've experienced a loss- whether large or small- it impacts your stability, your sense of support. This instability impacts your sense of safety- personally, physically, as well as materially. Your experience of life and the world around you becomes destabilized.

So it makes sense that because money represents safety and support, as well as comfort and stability, when life is feeling unstable and unsafe, your money will be impacted as well. Money is energy, so it will reflect your feelings. If you don't feel safe, your money will show it.

When you clear, clean, heal and transform grief, and allow the emotional body to find greater resiliency, this has a positive impact on your receptivity, your ability to receive nourishment- including money.

That is why I've created a nine month course Awakening Through Grief, to support the healing and transformation of your grief. To help you digest, heal and integrate losses- on all four levels of your being- physical, mental, emotional and spiritual.

This very unique nine month course is not just about healing grief, it is really about allowing you to integrate your losses with life, so that you can experience more resiliency, more life force energy.

When you clean up your undigested grief, you suddenly have a lot more space to create, manifest, align and receive the nourishment of life more fully!

The work that we do in this course will help you heal, transform and release grief- whether it's impacting you physically, mentally, emotionally or spiritually- or all of the above. This process is creative, embodied and whole. It's a sacred journey of deeply integrating loss and helping you expand into life more fully.

Please join me for this powerful nine month journey that will truly change your relationship with loss and life. Transform your losses into life!

Remember that if you're experiencing financial problems, this means you are really experiencing life force problems.

You are not able to receive life force energy fully. Your channels are clogged, your receptivity is not awake! Grief, undigested emotions and experiences are blocking your life force energy which will not only impact health, but also finances. Loss equates debt- no matter the story.

Learn how to awaken your receptivity through healing and releasing your grief. Step into a more resilient, embodied and empowering life!

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Use this Tapping Meditation to work through your grief process- when you feel stuck, afraid or resistant to change. Remember that we always start with "truth tapping" by expressing feelings and experiences that feel challenging. This is a vital part of the process and paves the way for transformation and healing.

In the podcast below, I share a tapping (EFT) sequence with you that will guide you through transforming and releasing the old stories and invite in more receptivity. Remember, we start with identifying the challenges, then moving into possibility and desires in order to transform our shadow into light.

Use this podcast as you tap through these points:

Karate chop point (side of the hand).
Crown of the head.
Eyebrow point (above the eye).
Side of the eye.
Under the eye.
Under the nose.
Chin point (crease of the chin).
Throat point (collar bone/throat chakra).
Heart point (center of chest).
Stomach point (above the navel).
Side body (nipple line at side of chest).

Tap six to ten times on each point and just keep cycling through the points. Repeat the phrases I use aloud. Notice any thoughts, stories, memories or emotions that emerge as you tap. These are important pieces to return to, do more tapping on, as a way to clear blockages. As always, if the words I use don't work for you, change them to support your process more fully.

Share your experiences below! What emerged for you in this process? Excited to hear from you!

Just after Sun shifts into Virgo on September 16th, the full Moon in Pisces occurs with a penumbral lunar eclipse. This eclipse ends the unusually long eclipse portal that began on August 18th with an “almost” lunar eclipse. At the time of the full Moon (Purnima), the Moon has barely entered Pisces and will be under a degree- literally propping open the door between Aquarius and Pisces. This sandhi Moon is in very fragile and vulnerable territory, yet extremely spiritual as well.

The penumbral lunar eclipse on the 16th will be visible in much of Europe, Asia, Australia, Africa, Western South America, Pacific, Atlantic, Indian Ocean, Arctic and Antarctica. It will not touch North America. The eclipse will begin at 10:54 am MDT, ending at 14:53 MDT. The maximum eclipse will occur at 12:54 pm MDT. From a Vedic perspective, it is not advised to be outside during the eclipse. Stay covered if you have to be out and about- especially your head and eyes. As the eclipse portal comes to a close, a release process is taking place. This may take several more days or weeks to integrate fully.

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As you move through this eclipse portal cycle, integrating and digesting the powerful themes of this shadowed time, there will be strong emotional body waves activated. This is a cleansing cycle, a time to move out grief and harvest rich inner wisdom that has long been covered up by your shadow. Use this Tapping Meditation as a resource for uncovering your emotional body pain, so you can find the needs underneath the big feelings. Then follow up with the Creative Ritual below. Attend to the space you've created with consciousness and presence.

Step One:

Grief Tapping Meditation

Step Two:

Awakening Inner Space ~ Creative Ritual

We worked a lot in this Space Clearing the Heart Workshop with noticing the internal landscape, what is arriving. As we continued to cultivate inner presence during the class, I asked you to notice the space within your body. Where do you feel more space in the body? Where does this space arrive within you? How does it feel? This space within is ripe with potential and possibility. It is fragile and vulnerable, but also very powerful. This creative ritual will help you continue to cultivate a relationship with this inner space.

1) Using craypas, paints or pencils, create an image of the space you are cultivating a relationship with. What does this space feel like within you? Create an image that expresses this feeling using colors, textures and shapes. Allow 10 to 20 minutes at minimum for this image. Title your image.

2) Use your image to inspire a movement exploration. Let your body move in response to your space image. Use the intention of "moving with this feeling of space in the body". What sensations emerge for you during your dance? What awareness? Allow 5 to 10 minutes for this movement exploration. I encourage you to extend this time frame as you recycle this process.

* If you are in an acute grief phase, you may wish to simply hold a shape in the body, to mirror your space image, rather than move the image.

3) Harvesting. In your journal answer these questions:
I am, I want, I need, I sense, I feel, I imagine.

How do you want to attend to this space within? What is your intention?
What am I opening to? What am I closing to?

Grief is not glamorous. It's not popular. Few people want to talk about it let alone do the work that it takes to heal it. Grief is not happy. It's not fun and it requires your greatest patience. Patience with your self and patience from others.

No wonder it is so repulsive.

Grief asks so much of us and so much from others. It’s messy, chaotic and extremely uncomfortable. It challenges others to witness the ugliness of grief. It disrupts and creates lasting changes that forever shapes how we move forward.

The emotional body experiences explosive, violent and disturbing waves. These waves are uncontrollable and unpredictable. It can feel scary and unsafe. When will another wave hit? How will I get back to shore? Can I get back to solid ground? Touching your emotional body through the grief process is a deep relationship with the Divine Feminine- her untamed, wild body of wisdom, strength and uncertainty.

Grief is far from popular.

Very few people are brave enough to do the work, the tireless work, that it takes in order to use grief as a resource for healing and awakening. Consequently most people don’t grieve fully and the healing does not take place. The gift never arrives. The wisdom is never extracted. Stunting the grief process is damaging on multiple levels and can effect all four bodies- physical, mental, emotional and spiritual.

Grief can be your biggest transformational resource for awakening. So why do most people resist this process?

If used properly, grief can heal and transform your biggest wounds, as well as repair your ancestral karmas. In fact much of the grief, suffering and pain you will face in your life time is directly handed down from your ancestors. This is the result of your ancestors not honoring and healing their own grief. From an epigenetic perspective, this unprocessed grief becomes your familial mythology and shapes your personal mythology as well.  

Grief does not go away. Let me repeat that. Grief does not go away.

Grief changes though- and it will change you. Change is inevitable and impossible to avoid. The very nature of the grief process is change, uncontrollable change. These changes must be honored- authentically and consistently. The changes your grief forces you to confront will awaken you- if you let it.

Grief is not joyful.

It usually doesn't look or feel happy. But it can become your greatest teacher.

From a Jyotish perspective, grief is shown by Saturn, the planet of both hard work and enlightenment. This is the story of grief- hard work and enlightenment. From consistent heat, pressure and time, the diamond appears. Saturn supports you with this transformational journey.

Saturn also brings resistance. Karmically speaking, the very thing you most desire is often what you are also resisting the most. Saturn shows us our resistance to healing and expresses the simultaneous desire for liberation. He shows us where the hard work must be done.

Do you know how to work with your resistance as a healing resource?!

In my personal experience with various forms of grief (lifelong grief, acute grief, as well as trauma induced grief) the lack of external support for my grief has been one of the biggest hindrances to my awakening.

I consistently see the lack of support with the grief journey as the biggest obstacle to healing and awakening that my clients have. This is also how the grief process gets suppressed and avoided. Without the necessary holding, reflection, witnessing and mirroring during the grief journey, there is a risk of it becoming stuck, stagnant, or even worse- creating disturbing mutations of the shadow.

Witnessing and holding clients through their grief journey has been powerfully validating for me personally and professionally. Consistent holding and honoring one’s process of awakening can in fact change personal and ancestral wounding, liberate one from systemic family issues and transform and heal simultaneously.

This has also been my personal experience with grief and trauma. It has only been through very consistent, reliable holding that I have had the courage to face my own darkness. The courage I’ve needed to face my own debilitating grief has come through very sacred containers. This includes one on one support and group support. I’ve been fortunate enough to experience containers of support that mirrored to me that I am safe. (But plenty of others that mirrored to me that I was not safe, not contained, that my grief was not welcome or honored).

Safety is the antidote to grief. But safety must be rebuilt and re-established after a loss. Being held in a safe and sacred container can help to re-establish the feeling of safety inside and out.

Grief is in fact an opportunity to look at your biggest shadows, and your darkest darkness.

But the grief journey is not a popular one.

It is shunned and so often misunderstood. There is little to no space for grieving in our relationships and communities, resulting in unprocessed grief more times than not. Far too often the grief journey gets stunted or is incomplete.

The truth is that the grief process does not end, but we must attend to it very intentionally, with deep presence. It goes hand in hand with life and must be honored as an equal partner in the process of living. Grief is your most powerful medicine, a potent tool for your inner awakening.


I’m on a mission to normalize grief, to educate others about its wisdom and power. I continue to be inspired by my grief journey and what I witness in my clients. Grief is a powerful teacher.


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Use this Tapping Meditation to work through your grief process- when you feel stuck, afraid or resistant to change. Remember that we always start with "truth tapping" by expressing feelings and experiences that feel challenging. This is a vital part of the process and paves the way for transformation and healing.

In the podcast below, I share a tapping (EFT) sequence with you that will guide you through transforming and releasing the old stories and invite in more receptivity. Remember, we start with identifying the challenges, then moving into possibility and desires in order to transform our shadow into light.

Use this podcast as you tap through these points:

Karate chop point (side of the hand).
Crown of the head.
Eyebrow point (above the eye).
Side of the eye.
Under the eye.
Under the nose.
Chin point (crease of the chin).
Throat point (collar bone/throat chakra).
Heart point (center of chest).
Stomach point (above the navel).
Side body (nipple line at side of chest).

Tap six to ten times on each point and just keep cycling through the points. Repeat the phrases I use aloud. Notice any thoughts, stories, memories or emotions that emerge as you tap. These are important pieces to return to, do more tapping on, as a way to clear blockages. As always, if the words I use don't work for you, change them to support your process more fully.

Share your experiences below! What emerged for you in this process? Excited to hear from you!

Use this Tapping Meditation to work through challenging relationships- when you feel stuck, afraid or resistant to change. Remember that we always start with "truth tapping" by expressing feelings and experiences that feel challenging. This is a vital part of the process and paves the way for transformation and healing.

In the podcast below, I share a tapping (EFT) sequence with you that will guide you through transforming and releasing the old stories and invite in more receptivity. Remember, we start with identifying the challenges, then moving into possibility and desires in order to transform our shadow into light.

Use this podcast as you tap through these points:

Karate chop point (side of the hand).
Crown of the head.
Eyebrow point (above the eye).
Side of the eye.
Under the eye.
Under the nose.
Chin point (crease of the chin).
Throat point (collar bone/throat chakra).
Heart point (center of chest).
Stomach point (above the navel).
Side body (nipple line at side of chest).

Tap six to ten times on each point and just keep cycling through the points. Repeat the phrases I use aloud. Notice any thoughts, stories, memories or emotions that emerge as you tap. These are important pieces to return to, do more tapping on, as a way to clear blockages. As always, if the words I use don't work for you, change them to support your process more fully.

Share your experiences below! What emerged for you in this process? Excited to hear from you!

Do you ever catch yourself feeling like "it's not enough" on some level of your life?

It might show up as not enough money, not enough time, resources, support or love. Perhaps you feel you are not enough- in your relationships, as a parent, with family or at your job.

This story of lack, of scarcity, is carried by almost everyone. It shows up in many different ways- affecting your ability to receive the nourishment you need and locking you into a highly critical personal narrative that emerges to undermine your sense of safety and support. You probably feel yourself doing more as a result. Doing more work, putting in more time, feeling depleted in the process. Yet, no matter what you do, you never seem get ahead or conquer this feeling of "it's not enough".

The story "it's never enough" is a powerful force- one that will keep you stuck in cycles of malnourishment, instability and co-dependency.

Like every human being, your ancestral legacy is handed down to you and your story of scarcity is no different. The patterns, behaviors and experiences that were shared with you epigenetically (or energetically), imprinted your being. Your familial stories hardwired you for making certain choices, having certain behaviors and activated likes and dislikes.

My story of scarcity began before I was born. I entered a life where my needs could not be met fully. There was not a feeling of safety and support often nor immense happiness and joy surrounding my birth. I arrived to a mother who was already depleted- taking care of another small child and a partner who was struggling on a variety of levels. My mother's own story of lack had multiplied and taking care of yet another person with needs, I imagine, felt overwhelming to her.

When my father died suddenly just after my first birthday, the lack intensified within me. The immense shock, grief and trauma surrounding his death, undermined my ability to feel worthy or supported. In fact, this woundology that I've carried about not being "enough" for my father to stay on the planet, has impacted me greatly.

Three years ago my mother passed suddenly and left me with heart wrenching grief. I spent my entire life trying to be "enough" for her and yet again I was not "enough" on some level to keep her here on the planet.

Of course on the conscious level, I know this story doesn't make sense, but my unconscious terrain has perpetuated a very shadowed story of "not being enough" as I am. This "not enough" story has been a powerful force that has undermined my ability to feel safe, supported and loved.

As I continue to explore the territory of my personal mythology and allow my grief to be a healing force in my inner awakening, life has dramatically shifted. Understanding the nuances of my early childhood experiences and how they have sabotaged and undermined my ability to feel safe, supported, grounded or even willing to stay rooted in my body, has been vital for my recovery process.

My story of lack has directly impacted my finances. This ability to feel safe and supported, or to make choices that support further stability, has been directly connected to money.

In fact, your relationship with money is always going to mirror to you what your biggest needs are. Where you are stuck in lack, scarcity or "not being enough".

Pause here and notice.

What is your story with money?

Do you always struggle to make ends meet?

Are you able to make money, but just can't seem to keep it or save it?

Is there plenty of money, but still a sense of depletion and malnourishment anyway?

Is your financial stability intimately connected to someone else taking care of you?

Notice how your story with money is connected to not feeling like you're "enough" on some level of your life.

How does your money story connect with your story of lack in other areas of your life?

The fact is they are intimately connected. Wherever you are not feeling "enough" within yourself, this will be mirrored to you within your finances.

These old stories and wounds can be re-patterned, changed, healed and transformed. In fact, for the last five years, I've dedicated my efforts to deepening my experience of support and stability- both inner and outer. The massive instability I've experienced, has forced this need to intensify and has activated deeper desires for a sense of grounding.

Fortunately my embodiment resources and tools have been a powerful way for me to deepen my relationship with stability and support, changing my story in positive ways. I am happy to share that how I work with my instability is very different these days! My choices are radically different- which means I no longer create the immense instability I used to, nor am I attracting it to myself. I'm also very conscious of the instability when and if it arrives- so I can use it as a resource for deepening my inner change.

Metaphorically, the legs and feet are your grounding and stabilizing resources within the body.

Legs and feet are connected to the 9th, 10th, 11th and 12th houses of the jyotish chart- or Sagittarius, Capricorn, Aquarius and Pisces as well. The planets connected to these houses and signs can be important resources which may offer you a road map to re-patterning your relationship with stability and support. Use your jyotish chart as a resource for understanding your scarcity, lack and instability story.

The process of sustainable and lasting change begins within. It begins with the body, with sensation, with slow steps that move you closer to the feeling of being steady and grounded.

When the feelings of instability have been where your focus and attention has been for so many years, it requires diligence and "retraining" in order to strengthen and clarify the feeling of stability instead.

The wisdom of somatics and embodiment training are gentle, yet powerful resources for creating lasting inner change.

Join me June 26th for an embodied approach to creating abundance.

Change your story of scarcity and create more wealth- in an embodied way.

Learn resources to re-pattern your story of lack and scarcity using the wisdom of the body, jyotish and creativity.

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The tapping meditation above is your first step in identifying and moving your scarcity story. Share your experiences and questions below.