Yesterday I was in session with a dear client.
We were working with her limiting beliefs, her story of scarcity. A story that is deeply rooted in her grief, sadness and loss. As we were tapping together (doing EFT) to clear this painful story, I came to a very poignant realization. The journey of grief is in fact the Bhakti path- if used as a resource for awakening and opening. Grief is inherently connected to your pain and suffering. It connects you deeply to your losses, to release and letting go. Moksha (liberation) is in fact a process of release, letting go and endings. (You can see what your relationship is with Moksha and loss, simply by looking at the 12th house in your jyotish chart. It's also the house of death and the ancestors because of its connection to transformation.) Release and letting go are natural parts of life. Nature's intelligence shares this process of release and transformation with us consistently. Particularly through the ever-changing seasons. Yet loss is one of the most challenging things you will ever face in your lifetime. Small losses or big, life changing losses, the process of letting go is not easy. Grief is a natural response to the pain of letting go, of releasing some attachment. When you choose to use your grief process for self awakening, for liberation, the journey becomes very different. Grief can become a spiritual resource- one that awakens you from deep slumber. The pain you experience during your loss will show you the places within where you have not been fully conscious. The gift of your pain is the awakening to your unconscious patterns, behaviors and choices. It is the ultimate wake up call. Most people will never use their grief as a spiritual resource. As a tool of self awakening. A way to awaken from their deepest slumbers. Using the grief journey as a path of self realization is a poignant practice. One that I am very passionate about. I've experienced (and continue to experience) the power of leaning in closer to my grief- my inner pain, darkness, shadow and suffering. Please join me for a heart-centered class to help you deepen your inner wisdom and relationship with Spirit. This process of leaning in closer- to your self and your pain- is actually a practice of devotion. Devotion to the self. Your consistent presence, the act of showing up for yourself in your pain, takes bravery, courage and willingness. Something profound begins to shift within your being with this simple, consistent act of arriving. Arriving back to the self- over and over again. This is the practice of Bhakti, heart centered devotion. Devotion of the self. Heart-centered devotion requires that you show up in these ways: - Be consistent. This is a practice which requires you return again and again. Arrive with presence. Your attention to the self is your mantra. - Non judgment. As you notice what is arriving, just honor what is. You are simply bringing your attention to the movement within your emotional body landscape, without labels or trying to change it. - Devotion. Your ability to arrive again and again with presence for your emotional body landscape, is an act of devotion. Remember that your emotional body is a powerful resource. This is also the place of your Divine Feminine wisdom. How to Deepen Your Devotion As you practice showing up for your emotional body, honor it. Be a witness, then lean in closer. What is your emotional body telling you? What is the underlying need? The gift of your emotional body is that it will always share with you a need that is either being met, or not being met. Listen closely. When you can arrive for yourself again and again with non-judgment, with openness and honoring, you can also awaken more loving kindness for yourself. It is likely you have never been mirrored this container of loving kindness during big waves of emotion. Think back to your childhood. How did your parents "manage" your temper tantrums? Your powerful emotional outbursts? This is likely the same way you are still "managing" your emotions as an adult. Through avoidance, resistance, fear, challenge or resentment. The first step to re-patterning this old conditioning is committing to arriving. Showing up is 50% of the process. Don't just commit to showing up though. How to Master the Process of Self Devotion: Can you show up for yourself without judging your emotions? Can you separate the emotional body messages from the mental body stories? Can you harvest the need underneath the emotional body message? Can you show up for yourself with more loving kindness, honoring yourself with non judgment- no matter what is arriving? Can you honor yourself for arriving, trusting that this simple act of showing up is in fact a path of devotion, a process of deepening self love? Self love requires that you show up for yourself- your whole self. The act of self love is devotional by nature. It is a process of accepting, surrendering, honoring and bringing compassion to your whole being. This is the practice of Bhakti. Heart-centered devotion requires that you honor and allow all parts of yourself. That all parts of your being make up your wholeness. This includes your pain, sorrow, darkness and illusion. Your grief. Your ability to honor your grief- as a way to open your heart and awaken your inner wisdom- is the most profound act of devotion you can give yourself. Please join me this weekend for a Bhakti centered practice. I'll be sharing potent resources to support your spiritual and emotional body awakening. This is the last chance to register! Doors are closing!
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I'm in the midst of my 14 Day Emotional Body Challenge. I've been sharing resources and guidance to support your emotional body literacy this past week. It's a very important conversation to have. And one that very few people are willing to talk about, let alone do the actual work it requires. Your willingness to show up for your self, for your emotional body, is courageous. It is the path of the warrior. So few people understand the gifts of the emotional body. In my lifelong journey with grief, loss and pain, I've encountered countless teachers, healers and therapists who aren't walking their talk. The majority of clients I work with are navigating deep loss, grief, and the lasting impact of unprocessed emotions. Undigested emotion will create issues on all four levels of your being- physical, mental, emotional and spiritual. The resistance to feeling your pain has dire consequences. Avoidance of your grief and sadness hinders your ability to feel joy. Your willingness to move closer to your sadness, loss, pain and fear will result in an expanded ability to experience the power of happiness and fulfillment. Simply put, the capacity in which you are showing up for your grief, is the capacity in which you'll be able to hold your joy. Often we need support with this process of leaning into our pain. This healing support may need to be personal or communal. But without consistent, safe, non-judgemental holding mirrored to you, reshaping and recreating new possibility for yourself will be near to impossible. This is the disappointment I have felt with countless therapists, healers and teachers. Those who I thought would understand my pain and bottomless sorrow, the heavy weight of my lifelong grief. I thought they would get it. But instead I have often been mirrored discomfort and disapproval, their own unprocessed emotion! This is why it is vital that you do your emotional body work diligently. You will pass on, mirror and express your emotional body literacy (or illiteracy) to others- consciously or unconsciously. The only way to heal the pain, is to walk through it- to move with it. To use it. To create with it. But most importantly to bring your presence to it. Presence is a powerful healing resource. This is the presence you have longed for, that you have always desired- from your parents, friends, family, teachers, healers and therapists. We all long for presence. You can start healing- simply by giving yourself the gift of presence. Often, presence is the simple part. Maybe you can get there, but then what? Once you arrive in presence, what is the next step? How do you know if you are actually hearing your emotional body? How do you extract the wisdom in all the pain and darkness? Building a relationship (like any relationship) takes time. It's your slow, consistent steps that let your emotional body know you are truly committed to the relationship. Big, powerful emotions are messengers from your emotional body that you need to pay attention. You need to lean in closer. You need something. But what? The wisdom of the emotional body is that it will share your needs with you. Your emotional body lets you know when a need is being met, and when a need is not being met. As a highly sensitive person, you have an extra special emotional body. You have more internal receptors to communicate what you are feeling. This can be helpful for getting your needs met. But if you aren't paying attention often enough, you will also experience bigger emotional waves as well. Daily maintenance is crucial- especially for highly sensitive people like you and me. Make sure you're doing a daily four level check-in. Here are some other ways to know if you are honoring your emotional body, or if you're frozen, stuck, avoiding or resisting its messages: -Do you pause to listen to your emotions, to check in with what arrives and then use this to inform your actions and choices? -Can you be present (very present) to others' emotions and navigate which are "theirs" and which are "yours"? - Do you dump your emotions on others as a way to cope with your own overwhelm? -Do you hate tears? Anger? Do you wish it could be happy and "smooth" all the time for your Self and your relationships? -Do you push past your own emotions, trying to skip to the "good stuff"? -Do you cut and paste over your feelings- especially around others- in order to keep things "tidy" and not rock the boat? -Do you allow time and space for discomfort and emotions like sadness, anger, depression, grief and loneliness? -Do you use drugs or alcohol, food and other "feel good" methods to enhance your life? Especially when life feels tough? Read more about befriending your emotions here I'll be sharing more emotional body resource with you in the coming days. Remember that your courage to show up- no matter what is arriving within- is the most courageous thing you can do for yourself. Your presence is the first step to awakening. I'm here to support your journey of emotional body intelligence and awakening to its many gifts. In loving kindness- for your whole being, Swati* Follow along with my 14 Day Emotional Body Challenge here {Space Clearing the Heart} Discover how to transform your emotional body in a creative and embodied way.
Get the Details As Sun moves to the other side of Rahu, towards the edge of Leo on September 4th, a unique planetary yoga occurs. Many astrologers are talking about the various effects of this upcoming four month period when all planets will be scissored in between Rahu and Ketu. This unique combination will continue until late December, once Mars moves to the other side of Ketu. This is unique yoga called Kala Sarpa, The Serpent of Time, which will intensify each month as Moon enters Leo and moves into Virgo, Libra, Scorpio, Sagittarius, Capricorn and through Aquarius. Moon mirrors and magnifies, so issues provoked by these signs and the planets in these signs, will be amplified as a result. Kala Sarpa Yoga's effects intensify the planetary combinations at play as all planets are essentially "hemmed in" by the malefic shadow nodes, Rahu and Ketu. The types of Kala Sarpa and the effects of this combination are widely disputed- probably because the nodes themselves bring confusion and uncertainty. In the case of this Kala Sarpa combination, all planets will be moving towards Ketu, which promotes release, letting go and awakening. Understand that this process of loss will likely be uncomfortable for many, however, it can bring gains simultaneously. Loss creates space for something else to arrive. Be intentional about this release process and how you are creating space for the new to enter. This process is your grief journey- which will be an essential part of this experience. Your ability to attend to your grief consciously, will determine how you gain on the other side of this unique cycle of transits. In many ways this coming four month period will be a seismic house cleaning so to speak- both cosmically and personally. As The planets systematically move through six of the 12 houses, they will be helping you clear, refine and release on a physical body level as well as a relative, life level. The houses effected in your chart will impact how and what is released through this process. This planetary configuration at times will not be a true Kala Sarpa Yoga because the planets will be dispersing periodically as they move through the houses. True Kala Sarpa Yoga indicates that all seven planets are stacked evenly in the constellations, clumped together or evenly distributed. In this case, throughout this transit, there will be times where Libra is free of planets as well as Sagittarius and Capricorn. The houses that Rahu and Ketu touch in your natal chart from their current placements in Leo and Aquarius, will impact how this transit effects you personally. You must also consider the natal placements of Rahu and Ketu in your chart as this indicates the karmas and shadows that impact you consistently. Mars will finally conjunct Ketu and pass him on December 27th of this year, dispersing the planetary energy and ending the Kala Sarpa effects. Venus will be the next planet to move to the other side of Ketu on January 8th of 2017. This unique combination is yet another powerful layer of transition and change that individuals and the world are experiencing right now. Remember that all challenges can be used as resources, as change agents. This is an opportunity to take challenges and turn them into self development and inner awakening. This is not a time to be foolish, take risks or drop your guard. Play it safe, use preventative measures like yagyas to shield you from planetary effects. Reach out for guidance, support and new resources. It's time to upgrade how you get your needs met. Don't self isolate or resist your pain. Use this cycle to activate and awaken, heal and transform, as well as find new resources that will help you move into a more empowered place within. Read more about Rahu and Ketu in Leo and Aquarius Join me for a *special* workshop to clear your heart and awaken your emotional body wisdom.
{Space Clearing the Heart} Discover how to transform your emotional body in a creative and embodied way. Get the Details Feeling the impact of these challenging transits? Let's talk. Schedule A Session Create soma instantly with this simple Ayurvedic recipe. Soma is considered the divine nectar of the gods in the Vedic tradition. It is pure life force energy and brings immortality. The Moon offers direct access to soma and will help your own body create powerful health from its golden, filtered Sun light. As the Moon fills each month, we have access to this nectar more fully. At the time of the new Moon, soma is less available and replenishing your inner reserves is necessary. As Venus (life force, Shakti) is debilitated this month, it's an ideal time to be attending to health, vitality and wellness more carefully. This nourishing drink will support more health, well being and physical resiliency. I call my version the Maha Date Milkshake, the cure for what ails you! This Ayurvedic recipe is the ultimate soma producer. Feeling burned out? Taxed? Energize from the inside out. Here's my recipe for instant nourishment. - 2 Cups whole milk (preferably raw or non homogenized) - Three whole dates, pitted - Small handful of peeled almonds - 1/2 tsp ground turmeric - 2-3 organic rose buds (or 1 tsp sweet rose petal jam) - 3 whole cardamom pods (black seeds only) Bring milk and herbs to a gentle boil and remove from heat. In a blender combine dates and almonds. Add milk + herbs and blend until smooth and frothy. Voila! Enjoy! Join me for a *free* 14 Day Emotional Body Challenge! I'll be sharing resources, tools and extra guidance to navigate these choppy cosmic tides in the coming weeks. Get the Details
The ability to hold both joy and pain equally, is the gift of grief. Grief is not glamorous. It's not popular. Few people want to talk about it let alone do the work that it takes to heal it. Grief is not happy. It's not fun and it requires your greatest patience. Patience with your self and patience from others. No wonder it is so repulsive. Grief asks so much of us and so much from others. It’s messy, chaotic and extremely uncomfortable. It challenges others to witness the ugliness of grief. It disrupts and creates lasting changes that forever shapes how we move forward. The emotional body experiences explosive, violent and disturbing waves. These waves are uncontrollable and unpredictable. It can feel scary and unsafe. When will another wave hit? How will I get back to shore? Can I get back to solid ground? Touching your emotional body through the grief process is a deep relationship with the Divine Feminine- her untamed, wild body of wisdom, strength and uncertainty. Grief is far from popular. Very few people are brave enough to do the work, the tireless work, that it takes in order to use grief as a resource for healing and awakening. Consequently most people don’t grieve fully and the healing does not take place. The gift never arrives. The wisdom is never extracted. Stunting the grief process is damaging on multiple levels and can effect all four bodies- physical, mental, emotional and spiritual. Grief can be your biggest transformational resource for awakening. So why do most people resist this process? If used properly, grief can heal and transform your biggest wounds, as well as repair your ancestral karmas. In fact much of the grief, suffering and pain you will face in your life time is directly handed down from your ancestors. This is the result of your ancestors not honoring and healing their own grief. From an epigenetic perspective, this unprocessed grief becomes your familial mythology and shapes your personal mythology as well. Grief does not go away. Let me repeat that. Grief does not go away. Grief changes though- and it will change you. Change is inevitable and impossible to avoid. The very nature of the grief process is change, uncontrollable change. These changes must be honored- authentically and consistently. The changes your grief forces you to confront will awaken you- if you let it. Grief is not joyful. It usually doesn't look or feel happy. But it can become your greatest teacher. From a Jyotish perspective, grief is shown by Saturn, the planet of both hard work and enlightenment. This is the story of grief- hard work and enlightenment. From consistent heat, pressure and time, the diamond appears. Saturn supports you with this transformational journey. Saturn also brings resistance. Karmically speaking, the very thing you most desire is often what you are also resisting the most. Saturn shows us our resistance to healing and expresses the simultaneous desire for liberation. He shows us where the hard work must be done. Do you know how to work with your resistance as a healing resource?! In my personal experience with various forms of grief (lifelong grief, acute grief, as well as trauma induced grief) the lack of external support for my grief has been one of the biggest hindrances to my awakening. I consistently see the lack of support with the grief journey as the biggest obstacle to healing and awakening that my clients have. This is also how the grief process gets suppressed and avoided. Without the necessary holding, reflection, witnessing and mirroring during the grief journey, there is a risk of it becoming stuck, stagnant, or even worse- creating disturbing mutations of the shadow. Witnessing and holding clients through their grief journey has been powerfully validating for me personally and professionally. Consistent holding and honoring one’s process of awakening can in fact change personal and ancestral wounding, liberate one from systemic family issues and transform and heal simultaneously. This has also been my personal experience with grief and trauma. It has only been through very consistent, reliable holding that I have had the courage to face my own darkness. The courage I’ve needed to face my own debilitating grief has come through very sacred containers. This includes one on one support and group support. I’ve been fortunate enough to experience containers of support that mirrored to me that I am safe. (But plenty of others that mirrored to me that I was not safe, not contained, that my grief was not welcome or honored). Safety is the antidote to grief. But safety must be rebuilt and re-established after a loss. Being held in a safe and sacred container can help to re-establish the feeling of safety inside and out. Grief is in fact an opportunity to look at your biggest shadows, and your darkest darkness. But the grief journey is not a popular one. It is shunned and so often misunderstood. There is little to no space for grieving in our relationships and communities, resulting in unprocessed grief more times than not. Far too often the grief journey gets stunted or is incomplete. The truth is that the grief process does not end, but we must attend to it very intentionally, with deep presence. It goes hand in hand with life and must be honored as an equal partner in the process of living. Grief is your most powerful medicine, a potent tool for your inner awakening. I’m on a mission to normalize grief, to educate others about its wisdom and power. I continue to be inspired by my grief journey and what I witness in my clients. Grief is a powerful teacher. Join me for a *special* workshop to clear your heart and awaken your emotional body wisdom. {Space Clearing the Heart} Discover how to transform your emotional body in a creative and embodied way. Get the Details Tapping Meditation Use this Tapping Meditation to work through your grief process- when you feel stuck, afraid or resistant to change. Remember that we always start with "truth tapping" by expressing feelings and experiences that feel challenging. This is a vital part of the process and paves the way for transformation and healing. In the podcast below, I share a tapping (EFT) sequence with you that will guide you through transforming and releasing the old stories and invite in more receptivity. Remember, we start with identifying the challenges, then moving into possibility and desires in order to transform our shadow into light. Use this podcast as you tap through these points: Karate chop point (side of the hand). Crown of the head. Eyebrow point (above the eye). Side of the eye. Under the eye. Under the nose. Chin point (crease of the chin). Throat point (collar bone/throat chakra). Heart point (center of chest). Stomach point (above the navel). Side body (nipple line at side of chest). Tap six to ten times on each point and just keep cycling through the points. Repeat the phrases I use aloud. Notice any thoughts, stories, memories or emotions that emerge as you tap. These are important pieces to return to, do more tapping on, as a way to clear blockages. As always, if the words I use don't work for you, change them to support your process more fully. Share your experiences below! What emerged for you in this process? Excited to hear from you! Join me for an embodied grief workshop ~ Space Clearing the Heart. Discover how to work transform your emotional body in a more creative and embodied way. Get the Details You may believe that relationships are a mirror, you may have even used others as a reflection for change and healing. But what do your relationships really say about your deeper needs? The parts of you that long to be healed, touched, awakened and transformed? From a jyotish perspective, the 7th house of your chart represents relationships. It is the “other” what you are looking at, seeing outside of yourself. You may like what you see, or you may despise it. Depending on the planets and their relationship with your 7th house, you may experience more or less challenges with “the other”. There may be cycles that kick up extra turmoil or pain as a result of the mirrors you are looking at. These external mirrors are reflecting to you what is inside. Whether it feels good, or whether it hurts, what you are experiencing is a piece of your inner landscape. Love or hate, it’s all within you. The 7th house of the jyotish chart is an expression of yoga. Of merging, integrating, uniting- all the parts of ourselves that we feel separate from, that feel outside of ourselves. The house of relationships reminds you how to conjoin and connect, to harmonize and balance your inside world with your outer world. The problem is that most people don’t use relationships as a resource for deep inner healing. Most people are using relationships as another resource for avoidance, resistance or addiction. Relationships become a passive resource for connection, rather than one of deep transformation. Yoga is union. Yoga is life. Relationships are yet another resource for yoga. Yoga is not just a merging of the self with the divine. Yoga in fact is union on all levels of your being. Union of the human self and the spiritual self. Only when these two bodies begin to dance together with more integration, can you find harmony or unity. Your humanness must learn how to co-create, to be in relationship with, to integrate with, your spirit- then yoga is achieved. This dance of integration is in constant fluctuation and change, yet always seeking balance on some level of existence. It's not easy to work with the hard stuff, the darkness, your human qualities, and to use the pain as a resource for transformation. Very few people are able to do the powerful inner work needed to become enlightened while staying in isolation. The mirrors coming to you from relationships are catalysts for deepening your awakening process. They arrive to help you lean in closer. To awaken new pathways within. When a relationship feels good, it can be a welcome resource to ease and support, to nourish and soothe. But what about the difficult relationships that arrive? How can you use these painful experiences to deepen and awaken yourself from unconscious slumber? When a painful or challenging mirror is shown to you, it is a reminder to look closer at yourself. It has arrived to flash a part of your being to you. A part of yourself that you need to look at very acutely. No one wants to admit they have a mean, horrid or deceitful person hidden inside of them. But if you can work with this shadow more consciously, you will be liberated from it. How willing are you to look into the mirror and use the painful parts of yourself that you despise as your biggest teachers? How willing are you to use the outside mirrors, the people that you hate as your biggest guru? The reality is that these mirrors arriving are in fact the parts of yourself that you refuse to look at. They have to intensify and show up in your face, blatantly screaming, just to get your attention. The longer you repress, suppress and avoid the shadow, the more intense and obnoxious it becomes. If you attract a sad and lonely person, this requires you heal the grief within. If a narcissist appears, you must attend to your inner narcissist. If a whiny, complainer arrives, you must attend to the dissatisfied parts of yourself. If an angry, violent person is presented to you, this enraged person must become your resource for healing your inner violence. Everything that you attract is a resource for your healing work. Every mirror is a reflection of your inner being. This includes your family system and the story of your lineage. Often these parts of ourselves can be suppressed, resisted or avoided for generations, but eventually they will emerge stronger and darker than ever. Eventually there will be a potent expression of the pain, grief, shadow and darkness that has been hidden in the family for generations. These mirrors are resources for healing not only yourself, but the darkness and grief that has been suppressed in your family for generations. When a challenging or painful mirror arrives, do you look closer? Do you lean in or do you push it away? Do you walk past it or do you recognize the mirror being shown to you? When a painful mirror arrives, remember that it is a resource. We have choice and freewill that can determine the outcome. Just to be very clear, using the pain as resource for your healing never requires staying in a dysfunctional or abusive relationship. How we choose to use the challenges will determine the awakening that takes place within. This includes using healthy boundaries. When the same mirror returns over and over again, it is vital that you deepen your inner work and recognize that you are resisting some shadows, parts of yourself that are still hidden. A relationship with another person, is a concentrated relationship with yourself. This is yoga in action. This integration with self and other, with human and spirit, with light and dark, is the path of yoga. The 7th house of the jyotish chart reiterates this expression of yoga, reminding us that everything that arrives on our path is a resource for awakening, transformation and healing. Use the Tapping Meditation below to move, transform and release mental and emotional blockages with relationships. If the words I use don't work for you, change them to align with your own story more closely. Please leave your comments and questions below and please join me for my special Guru Purnima class- Relationships Are Your Guru. Tapping Meditation Use this Tapping Meditation to work through challenging relationships- when you feel stuck, afraid or resistant to change. Remember that we always start with "truth tapping" by expressing feelings and experiences that feel challenging. This is a vital part of the process and paves the way for transformation and healing. In the podcast below, I share a tapping (EFT) sequence with you that will guide you through transforming and releasing the old stories and invite in more receptivity. Remember, we start with identifying the challenges, then moving into possibility and desires in order to transform our shadow into light. Use this podcast as you tap through these points: Karate chop point (side of the hand). Crown of the head. Eyebrow point (above the eye). Side of the eye. Under the eye. Under the nose. Chin point (crease of the chin). Throat point (collar bone/throat chakra). Heart point (center of chest). Stomach point (above the navel). Side body (nipple line at side of chest). Tap six to ten times on each point and just keep cycling through the points. Repeat the phrases I use aloud. Notice any thoughts, stories, memories or emotions that emerge as you tap. These are important pieces to return to, do more tapping on, as a way to clear blockages. As always, if the words I use don't work for you, change them to support your process more fully. Share your experiences below! What emerged for you in this process? Excited to hear from you! Ready to deepen your relationship work? Join me for my special Guru Purnima Class- Relationships Are Your Guru. Get the Details Do you ever catch yourself feeling like "it's not enough" on some level of your life? It might show up as not enough money, not enough time, resources, support or love. Perhaps you feel you are not enough- in your relationships, as a parent, with family or at your job. This story of lack, of scarcity, is carried by almost everyone. It shows up in many different ways- affecting your ability to receive the nourishment you need and locking you into a highly critical personal narrative that emerges to undermine your sense of safety and support. You probably feel yourself doing more as a result. Doing more work, putting in more time, feeling depleted in the process. Yet, no matter what you do, you never seem get ahead or conquer this feeling of "it's not enough". The story "it's never enough" is a powerful force- one that will keep you stuck in cycles of malnourishment, instability and co-dependency. Like every human being, your ancestral legacy is handed down to you and your story of scarcity is no different. The patterns, behaviors and experiences that were shared with you epigenetically (or energetically), imprinted your being. Your familial stories hardwired you for making certain choices, having certain behaviors and activated likes and dislikes. My story of scarcity began before I was born. I entered a life where my needs could not be met fully. There was not a feeling of safety and support often nor immense happiness and joy surrounding my birth. I arrived to a mother who was already depleted- taking care of another small child and a partner who was struggling on a variety of levels. My mother's own story of lack had multiplied and taking care of yet another person with needs, I imagine, felt overwhelming to her. When my father died suddenly just after my first birthday, the lack intensified within me. The immense shock, grief and trauma surrounding his death, undermined my ability to feel worthy or supported. In fact, this woundology that I've carried about not being "enough" for my father to stay on the planet, has impacted me greatly. Three years ago my mother passed suddenly and left me with heart wrenching grief. I spent my entire life trying to be "enough" for her and yet again I was not "enough" on some level to keep her here on the planet. Of course on the conscious level, I know this story doesn't make sense, but my unconscious terrain has perpetuated a very shadowed story of "not being enough" as I am. This "not enough" story has been a powerful force that has undermined my ability to feel safe, supported and loved. As I continue to explore the territory of my personal mythology and allow my grief to be a healing force in my inner awakening, life has dramatically shifted. Understanding the nuances of my early childhood experiences and how they have sabotaged and undermined my ability to feel safe, supported, grounded or even willing to stay rooted in my body, has been vital for my recovery process. My story of lack has directly impacted my finances. This ability to feel safe and supported, or to make choices that support further stability, has been directly connected to money. In fact, your relationship with money is always going to mirror to you what your biggest needs are. Where you are stuck in lack, scarcity or "not being enough". Pause here and notice. What is your story with money? Do you always struggle to make ends meet? Are you able to make money, but just can't seem to keep it or save it? Is there plenty of money, but still a sense of depletion and malnourishment anyway? Is your financial stability intimately connected to someone else taking care of you? Notice how your story with money is connected to not feeling like you're "enough" on some level of your life. How does your money story connect with your story of lack in other areas of your life? The fact is they are intimately connected. Wherever you are not feeling "enough" within yourself, this will be mirrored to you within your finances. These old stories and wounds can be re-patterned, changed, healed and transformed. In fact, for the last five years, I've dedicated my efforts to deepening my experience of support and stability- both inner and outer. The massive instability I've experienced, has forced this need to intensify and has activated deeper desires for a sense of grounding. Fortunately my embodiment resources and tools have been a powerful way for me to deepen my relationship with stability and support, changing my story in positive ways. I am happy to share that how I work with my instability is very different these days! My choices are radically different- which means I no longer create the immense instability I used to, nor am I attracting it to myself. I'm also very conscious of the instability when and if it arrives- so I can use it as a resource for deepening my inner change. Metaphorically, the legs and feet are your grounding and stabilizing resources within the body. Legs and feet are connected to the 9th, 10th, 11th and 12th houses of the jyotish chart- or Sagittarius, Capricorn, Aquarius and Pisces as well. The planets connected to these houses and signs can be important resources which may offer you a road map to re-patterning your relationship with stability and support. Use your jyotish chart as a resource for understanding your scarcity, lack and instability story. The process of sustainable and lasting change begins within. It begins with the body, with sensation, with slow steps that move you closer to the feeling of being steady and grounded. When the feelings of instability have been where your focus and attention has been for so many years, it requires diligence and "retraining" in order to strengthen and clarify the feeling of stability instead. The wisdom of somatics and embodiment training are gentle, yet powerful resources for creating lasting inner change. Join me June 26th for an embodied approach to creating abundance. Change your story of scarcity and create more wealth- in an embodied way. Learn resources to re-pattern your story of lack and scarcity using the wisdom of the body, jyotish and creativity. Get the Class Details Last chance to register is June 24th! See you in class and please share your experiences below! From Scarcity to Abundance Tapping Meditation The tapping meditation above is your first step in identifying and moving your scarcity story. Share your experiences and questions below.
How to Use Jyotish Wisdom to Heal Your Body Most people think of Jyotish Astrology as a means of charting the planets, the stars, the movements of the heavens. For those of us who subscribe to this very ancient body of Vedic knowledge though, we understand that there is a correlation between the cosmos and our own inner nature, our experience of life. There is a connection between the macrocosm and the microcosm, the two are not separate, but dance, mingle and co-create. This divine interplay is what makes studying Jyotish so valuable. I use Jyotish as a means of explaining and exploring the inner being, the inner realms of our own felt experience. In fact all of my transit reports are a reflection of my own experience with the cosmos, my own expression of their movement. This is why the consciousness of the Jyotishi is of the utmost importance; traditionally, the life of the astrologer has been one of constant purification and refinement, so as to "see" more and more clearly. Jyotish after all is the science of light, the science of vision, sight. If we can use the wisdom of Jyotish to see within ourselves, our consciousness, we can use this awareness for healing insights as well. Truthfully, Jyotish is so vast and all-encompassing, it includes all expressions of our humanity- our physical, emotional, mental and spiritual bodies, or the four bodies. I share more about this unique correlation in my article on sensitivity. Quite literally the Jyotish chart (I strictly use a North Indian style chart) shares in detail the connection to our various bodies- through the planets, houses and even the nakshatras. We could even say that each one of these pieces of jyotish wisdom connects to one of the four bodies, so that ultimately when we are looking at our jyotish chart we are looking at a web of energies, a web of our own cosmic energies. The multiple layers of the chart are so interwoven, it is this complexity that we study in Jyotish in order to see the many relationships between energies and how they express themselves uniquely through us. This is a nuanced and intuitive awareness that comes with much studying, clarity and inner vision. I believe in fact that this gift is possible for each one of us to embrace; it is after all connected to our intuition, our felt senses, our inner knowing. This is a refinement process we can learn and create. One of my greatest passions is helping others awaken to their own cosmic nature- studying one's jyotish chart gives us that ability. I encourage all of my clients to study their own charts, in fact, I believe that is really the whole point of Jyotish! To know ourselves, truly, inside and out. To awaken to our own cosmic nature! This is why I'm offering my ongoing classes, Jyotish Basics for Transformation and Healing. So that you can begin to awaken to the wisdom of your own existence, your path, the effects of the transits, and how to track these changes within you. Get all the details about my Jyotish Basics classes here. Because I bridge my Jyotish knowledge with the wisdom of the body, as well as the creative arts, I use the Jyotish chart a resource specifically to study the physical body and its myriad of expressions. My embodiment work is deeply intertwined with body part metaphors and the implications this has on our life experience. Therefor the connection one's chart has with specific body parts is of the utmost fascination and importance for me. We can look at the body part connections within the chart from multiple lenses- whether it be through the houses, the planets or the nakshatras. To keep it simple, I'll share in this article the specific body parts that are connected to specific houses in the chart, as this is a wonderful first step for identification purposes. We can then connect the houses of our own chart to our own specific body parts. If for example you are having hand pain, you would look to the third house to see what is effecting the "house of hands." There is also a natural connection to Gemini as well because Gemini correlates to the number three, or the third house. The body parts (and houses) also connect us to specific chakras as well. For now, let's just stick to the houses and their correlating body parts and keep it simple. First House: Head and face Second House: Throat, neck and mouth Third House: Hands, arms and shoulders Fourth House: Chest, heart, lungs, breasts Fifth House: Upper stomach, solar plexus Sixth House: Lower abdomen Seventh House: Pelvic bowl and organs therein Eighth House: Sexual organs, genitals, excretory organs Ninth House: Legs but specifically thighs Tenth House: Knees Eleventh House: Calves, ankles Twelfth House: Feet My work specifically includes a synergy of Jyotish wisdom, embodiment tools and art therapy resources, so working with body parts specifically is highly useful for making diagnosis and prescriptions for my clients. Often we can get ample wisdom from the body itself, and then take that information back to the chart for deeper investigation. It's this cross checking that becomes a very potent healing and transformation tool. To give you an example of this, I'll share a Creative Ritual here so you can get started with the self tracking process. We will be working directly with these tools in my Jyotish Basics Classes for Transformation and Healing. If you want to grow in the wisdom of your body and its cosmic intelligence, I strongly encourage you to join me for these Sunday classes. Register here. It will also help if you have your own North Indian style chart to study. If you need a copy of your chart, I offer this service here. Creative Ritual Self Tracking, Learning from the Wisdom of the Body {Audio recording below} 1) Sit, stand or lay down. Close your eyes and fall into the rhythm of your breath. Notice the rise and fall of your chest, the waves of breath moving in and out of your body. Take some time to relax into this rhythm. 2) As the body moves to greater stillness and relaxation through breath awareness, locate a sensation in the body. This sensation might show up as a tingling, a pulsing, or a sense of vibration. There might even be a color, a shape, a sound or a word that arrives in connection to the body part. Listen and honor whatever arrives for you. Don't filter the messages, judge or critique them. Your only job is to listen right now. Be curious, be interested, and be present to the body's messages. What body part emerges? What sensations are arriving? What messages are shared? Take note of this wisdom coming to you from your body. 3) Create an image of this physical body sensation that arrived through your self tracking. Use craypas or paint and put your experience on paper- so as to transfer the felt senses into a tangible, visual expression. This is a powerful part of the process and one that can shift us into deeper awareness of our body wisdom. 4) Once your image is complete, give it a title. Now, let it speak. What does your image have to share with you? If your image could speak, what would it say? 5) Pull out your Jyotish chart. What body part emerged in your self tracking exploration? What house of the chart is connected to this body part? Study this house within your chart. What do you notice? We can analyze the experience of the house by noting: What planets are sitting there, if any? What sign is located in this house? Do any planets give their drishti (gaze)? Finally, note the current transits and what planets might be effecting this house currently. Your body is sharing with you a very specific message. This message is directly connected to your needs, your desires, your deep longing for nourishment, comfort, safety and support on some core level. When we can access the wisdom of the body directly, we get very clear, unfiltered messages and insights. The cosmic intelligence of the jyotish chart can then help us further identify what is impacting us both macrocosmically and microcosmically. This is the vital information we need for deepening our healing and transformation process.
Learn more about your karmas and how to overcome blockages hindering you from being well fed by life. Please join me for my June Jyotish Astrology Classes. Get the Details. Everyone that comes to me for a session wants to know one of these things: What is my life purpose? How can I make more money? What can I do about my relationship issues? The hardest part of my job as a jyotish coach is not giving advise or looking at someone's chart and seeing what the challenges are for a person's life. I look at the karmic map and there are the struggles, the issues and challenges staring at me. Finding what isn't working, is not the hard part. As a jyotishi, the challenge I face consistently is giving resources, tools and embodiment guidance, but instead watching the client choose not to take these vital action steps. Watching a client refuse to take action in order to move through their weaknesses and obstacles is hard for me! Especially since I know that some very different approaches are needed in their life, in order for their desires to actually manifest. This requires my deepest surrender and detachment. It's true, many people just want to be told what to do and they want some magic pill to take care of it for them. They want a quick fix. A mantra, or yagya (which can often be valuable no doubt.) Or they want to know that their problems will just go away once Saturn isn't transiting over their Moon etc. Many clients hope that their "soul mate" will magically appear once a relationship transit arrives. But the reality is, it really isn't that simple. We get what we are ready for. What we are prepared for. What we have created space for. Money, love and creativity are all ruled by Venus- and rightfully so. These three powerful factors in our lives can bring joy or misery, abundance, or little more than a drop. Money, love and creativity are all determined by our ability to give and receive, or quite literally, the amount of flow and fluidity we are working with; the fluidity we are able to use and able to harness. This is why Venus is also connected to water, the most vital life-giving resource for us. Without water in the physical body, we have death. Death is lack of life of course, so the more vitality and life-giving forces we invite into our beings, the more life, fluidity and flow we experience as a result. The pelvis (and organs therein) as well as the second chakra, are the physical containers of money, love and creativity. If we are feeling a lack in any one of these areas, we need to address the physical issues connected to them as well. But the first chakra, and the body parts included in the first chakra (every thing from the pubic bone down to the feet), is perhaps the most vital part of the manifestation process. My favorite money quote is: Money wants clarity, purpose and flow! These are the domains of the first and second chakras! Contrary to popular belief, it isn't through thinking your desires that they become manifest. And contrary to popular belief it isn't through your meditation practice, your affirmations, your positive thinking, or anything else that is a part of your mental body process, that will actually help you materialize the intangible into the tangible. If you want to bring your desires into the material, you have to work with the first and second chakras (the lower, base, chakras) which are intimately connected with the material world. These chakras are all about being here, right now, in a physical form. Our body, our grounding, our actual physical connection to our life, is the realm of the first chakra. If you aren't in your body, embodied, you can not, and will not, be able to get your ideas and visions to manifest into the material world. We quite literally manifest through our body! This reality is reiterated through the story of lord Brahma creating the universe from his navel. He reminds us that we have the ability to create our lives- which is why he and his consort Saraswati rule over creativity and the power of the arts. They remind us that it is our creativity that is literally our most potent source of knowledge and wisdom for this existence. Want more money, love and creativity? Get into your body wisdom and your emotional body wisdom. Manifestation happens when we are intimately connected with our feeling level, our felt senses, the emotional body wisdom and the intuition. This is why I am so passionate about a body-centered approach to therapy, one that uses somatic wisdom, while also drawing upon the expressive arts as a resource for intimate exploration, and harnessing our innate, creative wisdom. It is also why I start my clients off with embodiment step number one, the three level check in. We must get more embodied if we want our dreams to manifest. We must work with the body wisdom and our intuitive knowing in order to create from our most primal sense of self. This is where we tap into our innate creativity. Creativity is actually a vital ingredient for the money and the love to start flowing. This is the gift of the embodiment resources and the art therapy techniques I work with; they potently activate the creative and physical channels. This stimulates the flow and fluidity of Venus, which we need in our lives in order to be more nourished on an ongoing basis. Don't think your desires. Feel them. Move them. Create with them. Go beyond your imagination. Gather your desires from your dreams, from your sense of intuitive knowing, and move them into existence through your body. Use your jyotish chart as your map to get you to the wisdom you need to unlock your shadows, disappointments and challenges. But don't stop there. In fact, if you stop at just the "knowing" of what your issues are, you won't move beyond them or learn to work with them differently. If you really want lasting change, and to create a different life for yourself, you have to take action steps that will literally help you re-create your life from the ground, up. From your feet to your head. From your first chakra and your second chakras first, then all the way up to your 7th chakra! I'm very passionate about my system, my tools and the synergy of modalities that I use of course! But I'm even more passionate about sharing them with you, and watching you grow, flourish, and thrive as you re-create your life over and over again! Want more support building your wealth now?
Please join me for my special June workshop! From Scarcity to Abundance Use resistance and challenges with money as your biggest resources for change and deepen your relationship with money through an embodied, holistic approach to wealth, money making and thriving. Early Bird pricing ends June 20th. Get the Details! The May full Moon will bring a debilitated Moon with Anuradha nakshatra- stirring precision, focus and regeneration for the cycle to come. This is a mild, tender and soft constellation, which will deepen the introspection and inward focus of the full Moon energy. Expect a waning Moon cycle that takes you deeper than you thought possible. Have a life preserver ready if you aren't schooled in the ways of Scorpio and the 8th house! The full Moon also falls on Buddha Jayanti, the celebrated birthday of Lord Buddha. It's an excellent time to stay inward, in contemplation, meditation or spend time in nature. Full Moon is May 21st at 15:14 Mountain Time, with Virgo on the ascendant at the time of the fullest portion of the Moon. Three planets sit in Scorpio at this time- Moon and retrograde Mars and Saturn. Moon is in exact conjunction with Mars, which instigates charged emotions and a fiery inner landscape. Aggressive, warrior Mars, ripples the soft and gentle waters of the Moon, causing anger, frustrations, emotional outbursts and violence. The pressure from Saturn simultaneously increases the intensity, while inviting in grief, sadness and pain connected to loss. Repressed emotions will be surfacing, emerging from your depths- which is the nature and essence of Scorpio. Anger is often connected to repressed power, while frustration is the repeated cycle of repressed anger and lack of momentum, action steps and movement. Expect emotions that have been very hidden, to surface at this time as well as in the cycle to come. Uncomfortable, yet extremely vital to increase life force energy and the circulation of more space within your bodies. Find safe, healthy ways to release the emotional pressure. Sun and Venus will be combust (in the 10 degree range of each other) in Taurus during the full Moon, a theme that continues through the end of June. These planets war fiercely- as the Sun is fire (masculine), while Venus is water (feminine). These two elements oppose each other. The conflict between these polarities will effect relationships, money, creativity, nourishment, comfort, health and vitality especially. Expect discomfort in these areas of your life. Notice where masculine and feminine energies are misaligned. The energy of Sun and Venus in Taurus, gives direct gaze (drishti) to Scorpio, inviting in this mirror to the Moon, Mars and Saturn. Are the frustrations and challenges you're feeling connected to an imbalance in your masculine and feminine energies? Where are your giving and receiving dynamics in conflict? Notice where Sun and Venus are moving through Taurus in your jyotish chart to determine where this battle is taking place. The cycle to come is a potent healing cycle, if you choose to use it as such. It's a time to clarify, get precise, hone in on exactly what you need and want, without frivolity. For many it will be a very dharmic time, pruning away the parts of your life that don't honor or serve your path fully. Challenges will be reminders of what must be released in order to simplify your journey. Let go of distractions and parts of your life that keep you away from your inner wisdom. It will be essential to tame the mind and cut away old stories, patterns, beliefs, conditioning and mental body illusions that keep you in lack, stuck, less than and away from your empowerment. At the same time, there is ample creativity and imagination available for those who actively participate in their creative power and potential. Do you know how to use your inner challenges and conflicts as a transformational and healing resource? Can you take your challenge and use it as a tool for re-shaping, re-creating your life? If ever there was a time to make lemonade out of the lemons, start juicing! Undeniably, this is a time period of great challenge for many. Multiple polarities and inner battles are taking place due to such opposition within the planets. Jupiter and Rahu intensify the challenges between purity and darkness, human and spirit. This battle is intimately connected to your path of clarity, purpose and inner trust. Anuradha nakshatra invites a cycle of triumph, success and immense transformation- for those who walk through the gateway. Out of darkness comes light. From mud, grows the lotus. From pain, one can appreciate the joy. From the process of death, new life can emerge. Let yourself be swept up in the transformational tides. Find your grounding cord within. Let the body be your channel, the entry point for deeper inner listening and awareness. Use embodiment as your mantra. Gather a new support team around yourself- one that is truly available to help you weather all storms. Full Moon Creative Ritual Class. Sunday, May 22nd @ 11am Mountain Time. In This Class... I shared more about the impact of this Scorpio full Moon and the cycle to come- as well as the impact of the current challenging transits. We worked with transforming challenges, polarities, obstacles and inner conflicts. I helped those in the class recognize what the challenge is actually telling them. What the need is. In order for movement, change, harmony and healing to take place. May Full Moon Creative Ritual1) Identify a challenge or conflict you are working with currently. Create an image of this challenge you feel emerging emotionally- as well as any other feelings or emotions that come up with this. What images emerge as you explore this feeling? What colors, textures and shapes arrive? Create an image that expresses your experience with this feeling. Spend at least 20 minutes creating this image. I suggest using paints or craypas and a large piece of paper. Title your image. In your journal or on the back of the drawing answer this question: If your image could speak what would it say? 2) Movement Exploration. Using your image as the inspiration for your dance, begin to move your body in response to your image. Move as though your body is having a conversation with your image. Let the colors, shapes, textures etc. invoke a response and let your body express this through movement and sound. Continue to develop your dance for 5 to 10 + minutes. Then respond to these questions aloud: I sense, I feel, I imagine. 3) Harvesting. Answer these baseline statements in your journal once you have completed the previous steps. Baseline Statements: I am___ I want___ I need___ I feel___ I sense___ I imagine___ What am I moving towards? What am I moving away from? * All timing is in Mountain Daylight Time- one hour ahead of Pacific Time, one hour behind Central Time and two hours behind Eastern Time.
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